March 28, 2019 2 min read

Somedays I miss a life of sharing a house with someone I loved

making dreams into reality and growing beside someone
I miss the woods and the sunsets over the canyons 
I miss all the good things
and hope someday the light will be stronger then the shadows
and I can find that place again

I am simple 
having a home I get to share with someone 
and a life is the thing that makes me the happiest
silly things like cleaning the dishes or cooking meals
or planning escapes to the hot springs or desert

when life is so glamour filled 
loves value is more about 
the spirit, heart and depth 
nature and the roots into each others souls

I read something yesterday 
"someone I loved gave me a box of darkness 
it took me awhile to realize that too was a gift"

Facing shadows requires being brave
because when you face them 
everything in your world may change 
and letting go of everything we try to hold 
to keep us from seeing the shadows 
requires the strength to sit

in the darkness alone until 
your shadows and light 
become one

until you learn to love the shadows
until you learn how to heal the shadows
rather then run from them 
cover them numb them or shove them down

the light and shadow are one
just like love and hate
the suffering comes from the judgement 
the rejection and the pushing away of
half of our hearts

I want someone to love all of me
so I have to start by doing it first
so now I am chasing the lights and the sun 
that reflect back to me my light
that support me, keep me safe and love me,

chasing the light and the sun 
is it good for me?
do I want this ?
is it making me happy?
do I feel safe loved and supported?

how does my heart and soul feel ?

following that

into the vast unknown

designs by me for Ritual
Photo by me in Java in the rainforest one of the last 3 we have on this planet - and we need it to breathe so stop cutting it down

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